Saturday, I blinked and the day was gone, without a posting.  Sunday, I compounded that by being very lazy.  I also ate too many pickles, and spent most of the day doubled over, in excruciating pain from stomach cramps.  In hindsight, the vinegar is bound to mess up your internal pH balance and then there’s the roughage and salt.  Fortunately, my husband figured out what the cause was before I went to the doctor.  Plenty of water and lots of rest and I’m almost all set again, although dinner does not sound appealing even now, at 9 pm.

I’m still struggle with doing what I need to be doing and taking care of myself in the right way.  Happily, this is not a PASS or FAIL kind of thing, and I can always behave differently tomorrow than I did today.  (That lesson took a long time too.)  Then again, change is rarely like a light-switch, flipping on or off.  (And when it is, it’s usually drastic and traumatic.)

Also, giving yourself love and understanding when you aren’t perfect isn’t always something everyone “just KNOWS.” Sometimes you have to learn it for yourself and that too takes time.  Sometimes you have to try days-on-end, until finally, you make that change and it sticks.  So, keep trying for balance and remember not to eat all the pickles in one sitting!